So, I'm starting over. It all fell apart as soon as Easter had come and gone and I've gone nowhere but up since then. So, I'm starting over. I packed my lunch box with low point foods today, have turned down about 5 offers of Panera bagels, and am currently eating 1 point soup while anxiously awaiting the EOG scores of my students... which arrived hours ago but haven't been released to us yet....
Wish me luck (again) and hope that I can find the will power I need to continue on more than a day!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Confessions from the yo-yo dieter
Ok, so I confess, I have not been on in over two weeks. But it seems to m e that our followers have dropped off...... Even so, I must put into writing my confession and my sins.
At my highest weight, I was 218 that was in October of 2008, when we started this journey I was 211.......all WAY more than i should weigh..... At my lightest during this journey i was at 189, but that was unrealistic as I had been sick for a week, so I count my lowest weight as 191.5
so, in january when I broke my foot, I fell completely off the exercise wagon, and it has been hard to get back on.
I didn't step on a scale for three weeks, and when I did on Monday I was shocked and depressed, I was 195 and that upset me. But as my partner has stated, I continued on the sabotage path.
This morning, I weighed 194 andthat should be a victory for me, but I am stuck.....
I wanted to hire a personal trainer for 6 weeks, but now that has to be postponed due to budget cuts and money shortages.... So I will do it in July once I have gotten my loan money....
Ugh so here I sit, fat as I always have been, making no strides in the right direction, no motivation and back to where I started from.
I don't know how to stop this freight train of failure, I am stuck on it and even though when i put the bad foods in my mouth I KNOW and hate that I am eating it, I do it anyway......
Stress is also a huge issue. Between my stresses at work which are many, I am embarking on my final doctoral semester and the work load is MORE than UNreasonable........But I have to do it....
So, wish me luck, but I know that the next month will be hard, and that if I can lose a little or stay the same I will be pleasantly surprised....
And that my friends is a confession from the Yo-Yo Dieter!
At my highest weight, I was 218 that was in October of 2008, when we started this journey I was 211.......all WAY more than i should weigh..... At my lightest during this journey i was at 189, but that was unrealistic as I had been sick for a week, so I count my lowest weight as 191.5
so, in january when I broke my foot, I fell completely off the exercise wagon, and it has been hard to get back on.
I didn't step on a scale for three weeks, and when I did on Monday I was shocked and depressed, I was 195 and that upset me. But as my partner has stated, I continued on the sabotage path.
This morning, I weighed 194 andthat should be a victory for me, but I am stuck.....
I wanted to hire a personal trainer for 6 weeks, but now that has to be postponed due to budget cuts and money shortages.... So I will do it in July once I have gotten my loan money....
Ugh so here I sit, fat as I always have been, making no strides in the right direction, no motivation and back to where I started from.
I don't know how to stop this freight train of failure, I am stuck on it and even though when i put the bad foods in my mouth I KNOW and hate that I am eating it, I do it anyway......
Stress is also a huge issue. Between my stresses at work which are many, I am embarking on my final doctoral semester and the work load is MORE than UNreasonable........But I have to do it....
So, wish me luck, but I know that the next month will be hard, and that if I can lose a little or stay the same I will be pleasantly surprised....
And that my friends is a confession from the Yo-Yo Dieter!
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