Myself

Thank you so very much to Julie, Shea and Lisa for posting for my encouragement! I know that I should love myself as much as you guys love me, and that all of you are on my side!!! I am so blessed to have you guys in my life and on my side that words cannot even express it!!!!

The problem with me, lies much deeper. I talked to a dear old friend tonight and we talked about the effects of past relationships....Most people say that when you start over, you start over and leave the past in the past....The flawed thinking in that is when people hurt/love/ignore/deny/accept you that no matter what the emotion is it shapes who you become!

I have been hurt, I have been betrayed, I have been lied to, I have been cussed at, I have been loved, I have been liked, I have experienced every emotion under the sun either with friends or significant others......

So, my heart is so very guarded, I don't trust easily....I mistrust too easily, cry too easily, get mad too easily and know that I am in protection mode for EVERYTHING!!!!!

So, this blog is a HUGE step for me to share what is happening in my life, to be open and to let the gates around me open just a little bit........

SO here I am raw with emotion.....