I'm Debating

on whether to weigh early--or late.  We leave before the crack of dawn tomorrow for our PA trip but I don't weigh until Fridays.  I'm not in the mood to lug my scale around in my trunk the whole trip so I need to decided whether to weigh in the morning before we leave or wait until Sunday morning when we get back.  Sunday will be more accurate (I suppose) and if I wait, I might be more inclined to make decent eating choices while we're gone.

Decisions, decisions.  Maybe I'll weigh before and after... so I'll know how much damage I did--then again, that has the potential to be depressing and derailing.  Arrgghh.  All I know is that once I get back, I'll only have a week left before I can consume pasta, rice and sweets again.... yeah--let's just hope I don't suddenly turn into a glutton on Easter Sunday!

Big Whoop...

So I stepped on the scale this morning for my official weekly weigh-in and what did I get for a long week of good on-plan eating????  A whopping .2 loss.  Big whoop.  I won't complain at a loss but I was expecting a bit better since I was vigilant about logging my food this week and it was the first time (in several weeks) where I still had some points left over.

Oh well.  Eat too much and I lose a pound and a half.  Follow the plan and I only lose .2.  Of course, some of it could have to do with stress and I know I've not had as much water this week as normal.  All this worrying about Jonah and this unknown, never-ending stomach virus which has now turned into a persistent cough, leg cramps and nose bleeds couldn't have helped.... I am, however, feeling a bit more optimistic about our chances of actually going on our big Spring Break trip since today my boy is smiling, eating and keeping everything down (so far).

Note to Self:

When packing a lunch in a divided container... do not include any quasi-liquids or your entire lunch will be covered!

So here we are with another lovely week looming in front of us. I did fairly well this weekend... considering. Pampered Chef parties are always good for a few extra (and unneeded calories) but at least I skipped the cake! I ate leftovers all weekend... as well as leftovers from the enchilada casserole I made on Saturday. They're mostly gone now so I can move on to less fattening things!

The rest of this week looks pretty much like the last few... Monday night soccer, Tuesday afternoon workshop, Tuesday night Scouts, Wednesday night Lenten Bible Study, Thursday afternoon meeting, Thursday night hand chimes/choir and maybe, just maybe, a free Friday night! It's all good though... this time next week I'll be packing for a few fun-filled days with ALL my boys in Pennsylvania--and it's really that thought that is keeping me going right now. But of course next week I'll be worried about arriving in the land of the smorgasboard...ugh! That is, of course, if Jonah will ever stop puking!!

Okay, well... this post ended up being a pointless conglomeration of thoughts but at least I feel better!

Down Again!

Woohoo. I'm feeling especially grateful for a 1.4 loss this week. My recent pattern has been low point breakfast, low point mid morning snack, low point lunch, whatever I feel like for dinner. And I have to admit that my dinner choices haven't been the best. However, it seems to be working as I'm now in the low 150's... yeah me!

It's hard to believe that I've now been almost a full month with no sweets, no pasta and no rice. The sweets aren't really that hard--I've given them up every Lent for a few years now but I forget that pasta hides everywhere and have caught myself almost grabbing mac and cheese out of the fridge or getting ready to eat a spoonful of Spaghettios that I made for the boys before remembering that they're pasta. No worries, though. I've not actually ingested any so I'm good to go.

Happy Day

191....down 2......FINALLY!

Ugh...

I ate too much yesterday... enough said.

Thank You

Thank you to everyone for the positive words and thoughts!!! This is a journey that is for sure, this weekend has not been the greatest...Being in Atlanta leads to not eating as healthy as I should. But Dave certainly tries, it is just hard....

Anyway, I am back to the good "feelings"......Some days are just harder than others and last week I struggled.....I also have to remember though that the big picture is that in OCTOBER 08 I weighed 218.....that puts me down 25 lbs and I need to remember that!!!

Thanks again everyone!!!!

Weekends

Weekends are particularly difficult for me and I'm ashamed to say that this weekend I haven't logged my food.  :(  Yes, I'm hanging my head in shame, and there's no excuse for it.  I think that when Friday rolls around and I step on the scale I feel like I've made it through an entire week and deserve a "day off".  Unfortunately, one day off led to all weekend.  Part of it was the lack of groceries (which I remedied Saturday morning) but the biggest part of it is a bad (God bless my poor husband and children) case of PMS.  AND since it's Lent and I'm not eating sweets (my PMS craving), pasta or rice, I've filled up on other things trying to get through the cravings.  Thankfully, fruit is most often my weapon of choice but my bread intake is also up--I have to get those carbs somehow!!  

I'm still struggling with trying to find a good time to work out... with little luck.  Monday night soccer practice gives me a bit of extra "run around" time and I make sure I'm almost always moving at work so that helps a bit.  The good news (although we'll have to wait and see at the end of the week) is that I stepped on the scale this morning and was a full 2 pounds lighter than I was on Friday when I weighed in... if I can maintain that until Friday I'll be thrilled--it is the lightest I've ever been on Weight Watchers (counting that time before :).

Too bad lesson planning doesn't burn calories... oh wait, wouldn't matter!!

So it's 5:45...

and this is the only time I can actually find to blog this week.  I started a post earlier this week but got called away on some unknown venture and never got to finish.  I'm now back down officially to my pre-NCCAT weight.... and it "only" took two weeks to get there--geez.  The loss this week was only .4 but a loss and therefore not a total wash.

My previously-started-but-not-finished blog talked about how being so busy was both a blessing and a curse to this lovely weight loss journey.  Since Sunday, I've probably spent an average of less than two waking hours in my house each day... I'm not complaining--for the most part I've chosen the busyness but it is tiring and I know that relief is not likely to come until after Easter. So the blessing and curse is this:  being so busy keeps me from having time to eat (which is good) but when I do finally get to sit down and eat I don't always make the best choices (which is nicht so gut).  

Like last night, in the rush between teaching trumpet to our fifth grade trumpets at school, helping Mr. Jonah with his Kindergarten homework and running off to hand chimes/choir I had time to eat a bite... of Doritos and a couple slices of the boys' frozen pizza and a tuna wrap.  Not the best choices on the night before weigh-in.  Of course, it also doesn't help that I've run out of everything this week... fruit, vegetables, and all the foods I normally keep in the house to keep me from straying.

So my goals this week:  1.  Go grocery shopping, 2. Clean house, 3.  Move on down the scale a teensy bit more, 4.  BREATHE! 

HOW?!?!??!

How do I break this plateau??????? I am exercising again, I am eating right and I can't seem to get beyond 193.......I know, WI isn't until the AM but I am DREADING it and feeling bad. I am feeling sorry for myself as I should have lost more and I should continue to lose, but I have only lost, officially on this site, 17 lbs and in 3 FULL months I should have lost more......
Ugh, this is where I start to shut down, where I start to doubt it and start eating crap again. This is where my motivation quits, because despite what I have been doing, I cannot lose......Maybe I am destined to be fat for the rest of my life, because 193 is FAT, morbidly obese according to doctors standards.......
I am thinking of quitting, I am thinking of instead of thinking of more loss, I will be happy with where I am at......Though I am so NOT HAPPY with my weight........i want to weigh 135-140, that is where I am most comfortable with myself, but I am not invisioning it anymore, I am not feeling it. I am feeling sad and overwhelmed and stuck......
UGH~~~~~
I know this is stupid and dumb and all other words to describe.....but we (Julie and I) as bloggers have lost all of the attention and following that we started with.....and that, to me, makes me want to give up on this entire thing. It has even become foreign for my partner in loss and blogging to update regularly........
Maybe since my partner doesn't post as often and that people are no longer following or seem interested, I should just give up.....
again, I am feeling sorry for myself, sad and overwhelmed, and without support, it doesn't seem worth it..... :(
All around,, for many reasons a bad "feeling" week for me......

Friday the 13th....

So with the superstitious weekend, I need as much luck as possible..... I have had a fairly good week, but I am plateaud and I am afraid I will be the same this week. I have been exercising a lot, I walked a mile at recess today and I did vive last night.....
Wish me luck!!!!

Thinking about the weather

Wow, this weather is SOOO motivating......I walked a grand total of 8.2 miles this weekend with Millie outside!!! I had a fairly good eating weekend, other than the Crab Cakes on Sturday night, but since I have been so active, I think it will be ok!!!! I am excited for the Y this week again, Tuesday Night Body Vive, Thursday night Sculpt.....I am going to walk millie hopefully 3 miles tonight!!!!!!

Could be worse...

I'm down .6 from my late weigh in on Sunday.  It's good news but I'm not yet back down to my pre-broken scale, pre-NCCAT weight.  .4 to go.  I really can't complain (as I never can) since my pizza intake was up severely this week.  Of course, with the beginning of Lent last week also came the beginning of my month and a half of no sweets, rice or pasta.  Should be interesting!

Good Day!!!!!!!

Body Vive was Fantastic last night! I have had a great eating day, so, hooray and hope that tomorrow the scale will approve!

Ok, so nothing lost and nothing gained. So, all in all it is ok.....not great but at least it is not a gain!!!

Now last night I went to Sculpt at the Y, talk about a workout, I have never in my life worked my whole body like that!!!! Here is hoping that all of this work will help out!!!! Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Snow Days

Ok, as much as I love snow days and I actually have been productive, I have not been eating well. It is too easy just to eat, and eat and eat and eat........and since Millie HATES the snow, it is hard to take walks.

So, off to bodyvive tonight hoping that will help!!!!!

1 Pound

I finally got a new battery in my scale.  Thankfully, and much to my surprise, I've only gained 1 pound in the 2 weeks since I was able to weigh last.  Not too bad considering the amount of food I've consumed in the past two weeks.  I'm glad to be back on track and am shooting for being back down to my previous weight by Friday and then on to lesser and lighter weights!