Ok, so the last few days of 2008, I ate like crap and drank like it was going out of style.... I weighed this morning, and as i had suspected, it was a gain from last week and that KILLS me!!!
So, on to what is really bothering me.....So, Sean, thinks that he is not "emotionally available" for a relationship, that he is "gun shy" and that he is freaking out.....I have not heard at all from him since his "apology" on Wed early evening....
It kills me, I contacted him through email last night, which I KNOW I shouldn't have, because now, 24 hrs later I still have not heard from him and it hurts more that he won't respond, then if he didn't initiate conversations......
UPDATE: Got an email at 2 am.....telling me he is sorry and that he overthought things and that he will be his own worst enemy for a while.....UGH.....
So, I deleted his numbers and email from my account and I will be SHOCKED if I hear from him again.
UPDATE: So, I realize that this really is all about him and really has nothing to me, but it still sucks no matter how you look at it!!!!
This, my friends, is the story of my life.....Everytime I think that someone is cool, this is what happens....
Maybe I am cursed with all of the bad men in life, or maybe if I were skinny like I want to be, to lose those 30+ lbs and then some I would not have the same difficulty keeping a man around me....
Update: I know, I know, that those who read this will yell at me....but I wonder, just wonder if maybe there is something wrong with me, not the men I encounter...Oh well, maybe more therapy is needed! :) lol
So, I have derailed my psuedo-relationship with Sean AND WW!!!
Not a good start to the new year.... :(
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Derailed, perhaps... but not without hope. Tomorrow is a new day my friend and you will be fabulous! I sucked this weekend too with all the birthday festivities but let's not allow this to make us quit!
WE ARE BETTER THAN ALL THE CRAP IN OUR LIVES THAT MAKE US WANT TO EAT AND WE ARE WORTH IT!!
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