Wednesday, March 11, 2009

HOW?!?!??!

How do I break this plateau??????? I am exercising again, I am eating right and I can't seem to get beyond 193.......I know, WI isn't until the AM but I am DREADING it and feeling bad. I am feeling sorry for myself as I should have lost more and I should continue to lose, but I have only lost, officially on this site, 17 lbs and in 3 FULL months I should have lost more......
Ugh, this is where I start to shut down, where I start to doubt it and start eating crap again. This is where my motivation quits, because despite what I have been doing, I cannot lose......Maybe I am destined to be fat for the rest of my life, because 193 is FAT, morbidly obese according to doctors standards.......
I am thinking of quitting, I am thinking of instead of thinking of more loss, I will be happy with where I am at......Though I am so NOT HAPPY with my weight........i want to weigh 135-140, that is where I am most comfortable with myself, but I am not invisioning it anymore, I am not feeling it. I am feeling sad and overwhelmed and stuck......
UGH~~~~~
I know this is stupid and dumb and all other words to describe.....but we (Julie and I) as bloggers have lost all of the attention and following that we started with.....and that, to me, makes me want to give up on this entire thing. It has even become foreign for my partner in loss and blogging to update regularly........
Maybe since my partner doesn't post as often and that people are no longer following or seem interested, I should just give up.....
again, I am feeling sorry for myself, sad and overwhelmed, and without support, it doesn't seem worth it..... :(
All around,, for many reasons a bad "feeling" week for me......

6 comments:

Shea Crutchfield said...

Do NOT Quit. You have just started exercising again. You have got to give it more time and more time at the Y. Your body has to get used to burning calories again from working out. Go and have fun this weekend, but do NOT quit. We will work out next week!!!! Do NOT Quit!!!!!!!!!!! You will be more mad at yourself and feel bad if you quit.......

Deb Marshall said...

Hang in there. This is a tough journey. Go to flow tomorrow night!!! I will send Mia for a hug in the morning. Don't give up--17 lb is a big difference and nothing to shake a finger at!! Continue to keep at it--eating right, exercising, and getting support!! Your site is great. Let me know if you are going to flow--Elisabeth and I are.

Cindy L said...

Oh No Sybil don't do that! You have did so good so far with all the obstacles that you have had to face since December! Keep going! I check here most everyday. Maybe the missing blogger has not been posting as much because she had been busy cleaning up puke!
FYI: I am not a stalker, but a friend of the "missing blogger".

Julie said...

I know you're frustrated... and with good reason but do not use it as an excuse to quit. YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT. You are doing everything right, give it time to pay off. You're eating right, you're exercising... and your body will respond. You've done an amazing job so far and you don't want to throw it away.

Larissa said...

Everyone plateau's. Your body gets used to your workout and diet and plateaus. I've hit mine as well. Don't quit -- you'll hate yourself if you do. You've got a ways to go but your 17 pounds closer than you were.

You need to eat more protein and do more strength training (weights). Shake up your workout routine and try a new class or different cardio.

Jumping rope for 10 minutes is the equivalent of running for 1 hour. Don't know if you can jump rope with your knees but thought I'd give you this info.

Lastly, do this for yourself! It is nice to have a workout buddy and support system in place, but you have to have the desire and want inside of you. Do it for your health and well-being. The reward is you lose weight and look hot on top of being healthy and fit.

Keep at it Sybil!! If you can write a dissertation you can lose weight!!!!

Larissa

maxmom05 said...

DON"T QUIT!!! YOU will get over the plateau and more on to smaller better things:) You can do it, you are not a quitter! I still follow regularly, but do not comment as often. Yo uare in my thoughts and you ahave been a motivation to me:) I need to lose myself:) Keep up the good work and it WILL pay off! Lots of love coming your way!