Sabotage

Yes people, I am guilty of sabotaging myself... again.  It is why I have always (and probably will always) struggle with weight.  When I get to a decent size--where I'm fairly happy with my appearance and other people are complimenting me--I immediately start to gain it all back.  Ugh. What's worse is that I know it, and I still allow it to happen.  It's like a mental block.  While I'm losing, I actually enjoy watching what I eat, and making sure that everything fits into the plan. But as soon as I get to a decent weight, I come to a grinding halt and it's as if a different personality takes over... one that says I should be able to eat when, where and what I want--even knowing the consequences.  So, eating takes over and every time I do something wrong, I vow to make sure "tomorrow" is better and then, of course, "tomorrow" never comes.

I don't know how to turn the happy dieter back on... and this out of control eater off.  Aarrgghh!